I am embarking – well, embarking sounds very excited and courageous. I am beginning, with tremendous resistance, the Master Key Journey for the third time.
Embrace the resistance! I’m embracing the resistance!
It’s not so much resistance to the course, all the growing and joy and wonder it brings; mostly the exercises….which are a LARGE part of the course. As I embrace the feeling, I try to figure out why. I think part of it is because this is my third time doing the course, and I didn’t reach my goals the first two times. Or did I?
So why am I taking this course again? Each time I’ve taken it I have increased as a person, TREMENDOUSLY. Growth is one of my goals for life in general, and this course helps me grow. So maybe I did reach my goals the two times I’ve taken it? Also, I don’t think I had nailed my dharma, I think I was soul searching and being distracted, so that may have had something to do with it. Moving on!
I know decidedly what I want to do, what my Definite Major Purpose (DMP) will revolve around. My next step in life is to become a counseling psychologist. I started on the track a few years ago, and as they say, life happened. Well, as a stronger, more mature and stable individual, I’m back on track and that’s what I want.
So if I already know what my bliss is, why do I need to take this course to help me reach it?
I love listening to motivational videos on YouTube when I work out, and one of my favorite speakers, Les Brown, referenced Og Mandino just a few moments ago. In this course, we read Og three times a day. I felt like that was a sign. The amount of work in this course and little exercises can seem flat overwhelming when you think about them, but at the same time…I’ve had practice! This is my third time! And I believe in the growth mindset.
I think what I’m feeling is just resistance. In order to be a psychologist, I need to get into a higher education program. I believe this course will help me get in to the program I want, a PhD program at the University of Tennessee.
One of my goals with the blog part of this course was to not be so contrived, to really be transparent and honest with myself, and anyone who may read it. “Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self.” – Cyril Connolly
So, there you have it. My first blog post that says, “This is hard for me, but I’m excited and I’m getting on board because I know it will benefit me and help me reach my dreams!”
Love you all dearly,