Week 20 MKMMA: What am I pretending not to know?

Why have I not answered the call? Why have I not embarked on this Hero’s Journey yet?

WHAT AM I PRETENDING NOT TO KNOW?

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I’ve been praying about this and sitting on it and I think it’s finally come to me.

I’ve been having a hard time dreaming out loud. In fact, I’ve had a hard time sharing much of anything with anyone lately. I’m a little overwhelmed. So when they say, “How are you?” I find myself giving a generic answer. It’s as though I don’t really know how I am and I’m too apathetic to figure it out in order to tell someone. Or I figure they don’t really care so I don’t bother telling them.

But that’s not me! That is NOT my authentic self. I’m not letting my light shine!

I want people to connect with what I’m saying, and I KNOW the only way for that to happen is for me to be authentic about what I’m saying. I’m going to have to think about how to make myself understood, and put my attention on the intention of being understood, BUT REMAIN DETACHED from the result.

I’m also going to start a wish-list. Something more than “wouldn’t that be nice”, but less than, “I MUST HAVE IT NOW”. More like a to-do list of what to get. That way the universe will know what I need/want and I can start manifesting!

I keep thinking that when things start going well, that’s when I’ll be authentic.   But that’s not working well because things are staying the same right now, which is of no consequence because I will persist until I succeed, by learning to ride out the wrath of each storm. I will be authentic now, even when things are stressed.

Stressed is a growth opportunity and I feel so lucky I look at it that way. I know it will make me stronger in the end.

I’M A TOUGH COOKIE! I CAN FIGURE THIS OUT!

(I’m pep-talking myself here, I don’t know if you can tell.)

Ok CONCLUSION:

I am going to practice DREAMING OUT LOUD. In order to get what I want, I must first KNOW what I want.

I am also going to work on being AUTHENTICALLY POSITIVE!

It’s time to ANSWER THE CALL! It’s time to take the Hero’s Journey and I want to get off this merry-go-round and get on that ROLLER COASTER of following your dreams!

Hope you all have a great week. I love you.

6 thoughts on “Week 20 MKMMA: What am I pretending not to know?

  1. Aloha Alicia, I received an inspirational quote today and thought I’d send it on to you, in case it’s what you’re looking for 😉 “Your path is more well-lighted than you have been allowing yourself to realize.”—Abraham Perhaps that’s the quote that will help you follow through on your great thoughts above. Mahalo for your transparency and honesty. Wishing you great success. Yours in Gratitude, Light & Love, Peace & Joy wendyht

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  2. The reason I love this blog is the thing your wrote about “pep” talking yourself. You are incredibly strong and I know this because you had the shear courage to write this for the whole world to see – making yourself vulnerable it so so strong! You are a tough cookie and you have already figured it out. Congratulations this is amazing and wonderful.

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